Oh joy..

Look what I get to learn about during this new BodyFlow release…
And from a pregger gal too! Yaaaay

No escape, I tell ya.

Focus, focus, focus.

Creativity, come to me!

It’s no secret in the IVF world that all these hormones, shots, & medications can severely alter your personality & moods. What a lot of people don’t know is that, as a woman, having ANY issues in the stomach or reproductive areas has a direct link to creativity & focus.

As I am a group fitness instructor & choreographer, you can imagine how thrilled I was to figure THAT one out the hard way (insert eye-rolling, sarcastic emoji… Seriously, why has that not been invented yet?!).

It took me a good 4 to 5 months into last year to realize that is what was happening to me. Of course, not without me beating myself up for not having new dances first. I was SO hard on myself. My clients deserved fun, new, exciting music & dances. And in the past, that was the easiest & most fun part of my job. But then, one day. I just couldn’t do it.
Like, I literally sat down with my iTunes & a note pad, and devoted ALL day to choreo (which I affectionately call “the Choreo-Zone).

Two years ago, the fruit of that labor would’ve been at least 8-10 new dances. That day- ZERO.

Then, I tried to learn my BodyFlow choreography. I don’t have to make that program up, it’s done for me. I just have to learn it. But still, what used to take me 8 hours was now taking me over a week!

I just couldn’t focus. And then I got mad at myself for not being able to do the job that I loved so very much. The one thing that used to come so naturally to me was now the hardest part of my job.

Can we say FRUSTRATING?!?

On top of all the other crap I had to go through as an IVF patient, THIS TOO?! It’s already taking over my personal life, it’s going to take my professional life now too? It was a serious WTF moment… Like an every day for months: WTF?!
DAILY WTFs?!?!?! lol

So I went back to teaching after every “break” wishing I had brand new stuff to teach, but instead covering it up with “throwback playlists” and “fan favorites” etc. My amazing students were fantastic about it! I mean, it is hard not to have fun doing Zumba. But still. I feel like I owe them more.

That brings me to today.
I’m putting my big girl panties on & I’m heading into the Choreo-Zone. What will come from it, I have NO idea. I’m a little nervous. But, by golly, I’m going to try my hardest!!

It’s time to kick these crazy ass side effects to the curb! I will not give in! Time to FOCUS!!!

Please send your creative vibes to me!! I promise I’ll soak them up as best as I can!! ¡¡Olé!! lol

THANK YOU!!
Emily

ps- I just want to thank you all for the outpouring of love, support, & prayers you sent me for “coming out” last week.
The night I published the last post I wrote, so many people I don’t even know personally messaged me with such gratitude for doing it. WE ARE NOT ALONE. And it’s not a bad thing that we should be ashamed of!!!
So, truly, thank you for embracing such a scary step for me. Big love to all of you!!! ❤️